If you’re in college or uni you might recognise the title of this post. Or maybe you’ve already passed that point. Or maybe this doesn’t ring a bell at all because you are (or were) super confident and had your whole life planned out after you graduated and it’s going exactly to plan (in that case, I envy you deeply).
And, in that case, you will not be able to relate to this whatsoever. And this post probably isn’t for you.
This post is for the people who don’t have their life together even if it looks like they do on a day to day basis. And even if you do have your life together, that’s not assurance that you’re not freaking out about what to do after you finish uni and you have to go out into the ‘real world’.
It IS a scary world out there, especially if you’re only truly entering it for the first time.
The first and only ever time I’ve felt scared in a what the hell am I going to do kind of way, was when I moved to Holland, all by myself. I was freaking excited but at the same time I was thinking: how am I gonna get money? What am I gonna do when I’m there? I’m gonna be all alone, am I going to find any friends (granted I didn’t till about two years later but that’s another story).
In the end I was completely fine because my aunt happily took me into her home and I could rent a room in her house for almost two years. I found a job pretty quickly. Got accepted in university the year after moving and I always had my family for support.
Everything went to plan then, but what if you don’t have a plan?
When graduating after university, I don’t, I don’t know where to start or how to make one.
Okay that’s a small lie. I have a plan, kinda. I am planning on interning after handing in my dissertation. I am planning on putting a lot of effort in finding a good internship and working hard there so that if I get a job offering, I actually do want to stay. Then I will keep working there, earn money and go about my life as almost any other adult in this world.
But what if things don’t go to plan? Or what if things go to plan, but I don’t actually like my job? Or I don’t like working in television all together? ‘Cause that is essentially what I’m at uni for, only since never really having had any experience working in it, how do I know I’m going to be happy in that world? Because I don’t have a plan B. I barely have a plan A, I’m just whinging it.
My biggest dream would be to be full time blogger. But obviously before that time is even remotely near I have to keep working at it for years and years. Meaning that I will need to get a job after uni to pay my bills. Bills which will only get higher when I graduate. I will also be in giant debt so the sooner I can get a job the better.
And everyday I hear around me how it’s so hard to make in tv, and in the blogging world. For blogging it’s constantly: the industry is over saturated. For television it’s always: so many people are out of work or can only barely make it. I realise I’ve not picked two of the most stable professions to pour myself into but it’s probably the two professions I will get most joy out of.
It’s gonna be a lot of hard work and a lot of not giving up. It’s gonna be scary to leave university and step into the ‘real world’. Specially since we aren’t really told anything about that in any education, but that’s another post (which will be coming soon).